urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:envyinside this life is wack envyinside 2005-10-23T02:38:16Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:envyinside:779 2005-10-23T02:38:16Z 2005-10-23T02:38:16Z the honorary title - snow day I volunteered at the special olympics today. I had more fun than i've had in a veryyyy long time. These people were people...no different than you and i, except for they still have a heart full of love and don't dwell on the bad things in life. I became so incredibly happy today that i nearly cried. It was absolutely amazing. It was a very humbling experience. Another thing: they ALL wanted to share everything...the toy that they won at a game, their thoughts, their love.<br /><br />I got my very first speeding ticket last night. Yes, i cried. SO WHAT! I'm really not happy with myself right now...nor the state trooper. Why the junk did i have to get out of teh car??<br /><br />While i have lots to say, i won't say it. ADIOSSSSSS!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:envyinside:615 2005-10-20T23:37:39Z 2005-10-20T23:37:39Z death cab -- PLANS I sometimes think that it would be NEAT to cut allll of my hair off. you know, a lovely a-line cut. i would donate the many butchered inches to locks of love, that way i couldn't get really upset if i ended up hating that i cut my hairs off. Everyday for the past few weeks, i've been cutting on my hair. I'll cut a piece of my bangs here and there or add a new layer to the backside of it. I'm just sooo extremely bored with this long, bland hair. HELP ME! Seriously, show up at my doorstep with a pair of scissors and cut away! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:envyinside:333 2005-10-20T23:05:32Z 2005-10-20T23:05:32Z !!! I could just think the entire day away. No need for media induced entertainment. My mind has been so scattered today, moving from one thought to another.<br /><br />I stayed up until about an hour before i "woke up" for school this morning. There were many reasons for this...but can be summed up by one word: procrastination. It seems to consume me these days. Everything always turns out great though, so it is definitely not a motivation to get things done. Why am i typing this? Oh well, i'll just delete this in a bit.<br /><br />The words lie on the tip of my tongue. I almost said it today. I can't though. It would ruin everything. I know that none of you know what i am speaking of, and i'm okay with that. My heart is in pain. He's moved on. I can't interfere. Life will continue. I'm just blabbering to get things off of my chest. This blog won't be here long.<br />Why does he have to be such a pessimist? I like him alot.<br /><br />So...here is what you've all come to read: I may get the role in this new indie film. I don't know if i can do it. I have no talent, but it's their choice. The plot: It takes place in a land far, far away...aka NY. This isn't true, why am i typing this. HAHAA made you look!<br /><br />OHHHHH. A road trip is definitely in need right now. Let's just leave right now. It doesn't have to surpass "Enid and Gaddy's Excellent Canadian Adventure", but we will still have a blast. We will leave soon...taking off with out a mission...without direction. Then we will stop, go, stop, and go again. So, who is with me? LET'S GET GOING!